The “Savage” rapper’s mom died in March 2019.
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Megan Thee Stallion is reflecting on the end of her mother’s life.
Speaking to L’Officiel for their latest cover story, the “HISS” rapper opened up about the shift she’s undergone since she made her mental health a priority — and how she wishes her mom could’ve done the same before her death in 2019.
Growing up, the 29-year-old rapper was surrounded by “tough” and hardworking women like her mother and grandmothers who shielded her from their true financial situation.
“I didn’t really understand where we were financially because they just made everything look so good. They made everything look so easy,” Megan told the outlet.
She continued, “My mama did everything and she just looked like a baddie all the time. It wasn’t until I got older that I realized that we were not rich at all, and we were struggling, and I did need to get a job…. Now, the veil is lifted from over my eyes.”
Looking back, Megan realizes that her mom was trying to “take care of both of us” — but she wishes she “would’ve got help.”
“I wish she would’ve talked to a therapist or something. I wish she could have been able to talk to somebody to just lessen that load or however she was feeling,” the “Captain Hook” rapper said.
“Now that I’m in those shoes, I’m like, ‘Man, I don’t want to carry that. I want to be strong.’ I don’t think therapy makes me weak, even though I did for a long time because in the Black community, therapy to me meant you were crazy,” she added.
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Reflecting on her own mental health journey, Megan said she had to learn to process her “feelings properly,” spend time alone and set boundaries.
“Even though I went through a lot of bad things, it really made me have to spend time by myself, which I really appreciate,” she said. “I had to be by myself to figure out, ‘Why is it so hard for you to be by yourself? Why are you constantly needing to be around so many people at one time? Why can’t you just go in your room and hang out by yourself?'”
“I needed to step back and look at what I was doing,” she continued, later adding, “When I got comfortable with myself, and being by myself, that’s when I started having a new appreciation for myself. Once I [started] trusting myself and being nicer to myself and setting boundaries, my self-love kept rising.”
Megan’s mom, Holly Thomas, who managed her career, died from brain cancer in March 2019.
While accepting the 2021 Glamour Woman of the Year Award, she grew emotional as she thanked her mother for raising her.
“I really want to thank my mom,” she said. “I want to thank my mom because she taught me how to be the woman that I am. She was my best friend, my manager, she was my everything, and I know she’s proud of me today.”