“I do still have my days where I’m like, ‘Man, I wonder why I feel like this?’ But at least now I have the resources to change the thought process,” the rap star shared in her L’Officiel cover story

Megan Thee Stallion performs on Day 1 of BottleRock Napa Valley on May 24, 2024 in Napa, California. PHOTO: 

Megan Thee Stallion is making strides on her ongoing healing journey.

The Grammy-winning “Boa” rapper, 29, appears on the cover of L’Officiel’s Summer 2024 entertainment issue, in which she candidly discusses where her mental health stands today after years of navigating traumatic instances alongside fame.

“I feel like I’m definitely on my way to a better place,” Megan shares after dealing with the loss of her mother, Holly Thomas, and grandmother in 2019, as well as backlash from being shot by rapper Tory Lanez the following year. The latter was sentenced to 10 years in prison last August for the incident.

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“I know I’m not in a place I was in before,” Megan adds, also admitting, “I don’t have it down pat” regarding her methods of taking care of herself. However, she seems confident now that she’s better equipped to deal with life’s obstacles as they come.

“I’m not saying, Oh my gosh, I’m in just the perfect place. Everything is great,” the “Cobra” artist added. “I do still have my days where I’m like, ‘Man, I wonder why I feel like this?’ But at least now I have the resources to change the thought process.”

Megan Thee Stallion attends the 2024 Planned Parenthood of Greater New York Gala on April 16, 2024 in New York City.DIA DIPASUPIL/GETTY

Although Megan has a renewed lease on life — amid her sweeping Hot Girl Summer tour and anticipation for her next studio album — it took her some time to find a place of peace. The “Anxiety” rapper told L’Officiel she once felt pressure to be happy for others despite “falling into a depression,” although she’s working on breaking out of that mold.

“When you are going through a depression or when you are going through sadness…you don’t want to put that on other people,” shared Megan. “You don’t want to be the dark cloud of your friend group. You don’t want to be a burden.”

“Everybody puts on a face or a costume or a façade,” she continued. “I was one of those people who definitely was always like, ‘I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m fine. I’m strong, I’m tough. I got this, I can do this.’ But then it got to a point where I really couldn’t hide it anymore — at least in my personal life — and I was just like, ‘Forget this. I’m sad. What are we going to do about this?’”

That’s where songs like “Hiss” come in — as Megan admitted that the straightforward, chart-topping single helped her express sentiments she’d been holding back before finally dropping the diss track in January.

“I had no clue that was going to happen,” she said of the song’s immediate impact. “I had been holding in feelings for a while. I felt like everybody was kicking me when I was down. It felt good to finally be able to just talk my talk because I was in a place where I was so down, and I didn’t want to do anything to disrupt any kind of peace.”

The hip-hop artist added, “I felt like, ‘Oh, Megan Thee Stallion, everybody hates you right now. Don’t you say a word. Just be quiet.’”

Megan Thee Stallion arrives at the 2023 GQ Men of the Year at Bar Marmont on November 16, 2023 in Los Angeles.STEVE GRANITZ/FILMMAGIC

As she continues on with protecting her mental health, Megan affirms that she has no interest in reverting back to her “old self” who worked tirelessly through hardships and wasn’t “processing my feelings properly.”

“Now I’m like, Well, wait a minute. Let me take my days to myself,” she said of her current progress. “I do have boundaries now. The way that I love myself is so different from the way that I did love myself… I’m not doing things to make other people happy. I’m just all about Megan right now, and I love it. I hope that I can continue this way.”